Soul of a Clown
It’s fine and good to put on the mask of a highly evolved, spiritual person. Just don’t forget that the mask is not your face. You are only practicing.
If something terrible happens, where blame is hard or even impossible to assign, you may be able to maintain your composure and heroically keep the mask in place. You may even feel it becomes you (or you it).
However, let someone treat you badly, and the mask suddenly falls, as if too heavy for you to carry. You may even fling it away, exposing anger, hurt, desperation.
We can’t embody what we have not yet achieved, except in moments of grace. If I pretend perfection, I only make the contrast that much more obvious when the mask slips.
I think of myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being with the soul of a clown which always forces me to blow it at the most important moments. …….~ Jim Morrison (The Doors) People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain. …….~ Jim Morrison (The Doors)